I've been holding up pretty good. Until today. I can't stop crying. I don't know if I'm doing the right thing. I don't know if every thing will be okay. I don't know if I can live so far away from my two oldest kids. I don't know if Elise can be so far away from me. I don't know if Erika will make good friends that will have good influences on her. I don't know if Bryce can live so far away from Brandon. I don't know if I'm crazy for moving so far away from my sister and her cute boys. I don't know how much longer I can wait for Jeff's project to take off and start making money. I don't know if I can live so far away from all of my dear friends. I have never lived outside of Utah. I don't think I can make it through all of these changes, all at the same time. ....Seperately,
maybe.
As many of you know, I have been anticipating moving for quite some time. As you may, or may not have heard, I am moving to Arizona. The moving truck is arriving tomorrow, (well, later today). Tonight will be my last night in my bed, in this house. (Although I will still be sleeping here for a little bit longer, just without my bed.) All the bedroom sets are being loaded onto the truck tomorrow and will be heading to Phoenix. (the first of probably about three loads and trips) I'm selling lots of our things. I sold my favorite entertainment center, and Brandons bed, because they wont fit in Phoenix. I've been having yard sales every Saturday. I'm packing up only what I use and selling everything else.
My sweet, beautiful Elise is graduating from High School on Thursday. She graduated from Seminary last Sunday. She will be staying with a friend this summer and then going to Snow College.
My first born, angel son is getting married on July 11th. Yes, of this year. He and Venessa will start Their lives together and stay here in Utah.
Jeff and I will move to Arizona with 2 of our 4 children. I know people have done this before. But I don't want to. I don't want to grow up and have to let my kids grow up and not live with me. I don't know if I can do it. I don't know. .......I can't stop crying......